internal-affliction

Stop asking how I'm feeling.  Cause right now, life's just not worth living.  Grab a razor, cut once more.  It won't matter, once it's sore.  Watch it bleed, watch it long.  Cover it up, before it's gone.  Now close your eyes, and fall asleep.  Because tonight's the night, that you cut to deep.  Be ashamed, that you awaken.  Skip the meal, of that fresh, hot bacon.  Ride the bus, tired and torn.  Blast your music, and wish to be reborn.  Walk the halls, head down and frown.  Avoid the glares you get around.  Sit in class, waste time and doodle crap.  Wait for the bell, and clench your backpack strap.  Waste your lunch time, hi

A flame burns high in the torch of youth As a young man searches the skies for truth An omen is passed forever it lives No one can see the burden it gives Nights spent in horror, days spent in pain A young man feels the weight of its reign With every movement that moves through his soul He now knows the reason that this pain was his goal To kill and to torture in horrified nights He feels that this pain is part of his rites To mame and deform To kill and destroy Every man every woman every girl and boy Each day that passes his fear takes a grip And pushes his mind to a much further trip He cant understand why he feels like he d

Harsh words & violent blows Hidden secrets nobody knows Eyes are open, hands are fisted Deep inside I'm warped & twisted So many tricks & so many lies Too many whens & too many whys Nobody's special, nobody's gifted I'm just me, warped & twisted Sleeping awake & choking on a dream Listening loudly to a silent scream Call my mind, the number's unlisted Lost in someone so warped & twisted On my knees, alive but dead Look at the invisible blood I've bled I'm not gone, my mind has drifted Don't expect much, I'm warped & twisted Burnt out, wasted, empty, & hollow Today's just yesterday's tomorrow The sun died out, the ashes sifte

Tears fall like raindrops From a soul filled with fear Fear of darkness within Both far and so near Darkness shrouded By a smiling face Living in turmoil This pain that I face Granting the pain To do as it's dark deed My body and mind Succomb to it's greed It takes me down deeper To fear and to shame Depths I can't fathom As I feel it's dark reign Life as I know it May soon cease to be For the pain that laid dormant Is now free in me It ravages corners And every inch of my soul It tears me to shreds With a heart black as coal This pain is alive I can feel it within My spirit not willing To try and stop it again I